Whats up with the name??

Once i heard 'Upside Down Pickle in a Jar' as a metaphor for a baby in a womb, and thought it was pretty fitting for our blog. This is for all the family and friends that Ben and I unfortunately dont get to speak to often. You can feel like you are here in all the action!

Monday, August 27, 2012

New Blog

thsi blog has moved to
upsidedownpickleinajar.wordpress.com

Monday, July 2, 2012

Father's day!

My computer has a virus, So I cant upload any pictures this time, but I can update everyone on our recent ventures!
A couple of weeks ago we celebrated Ben's first fathers day.
Mother's day was rainy so we went out for lunch and then spent the rest of the day relaxing at home and I did get some jewelry with Finn's Birthstone.
But because Ben has been working so hard lately, I wanted to really make it extra special. So that Saturday I kept up with Finn for the afternoon so that Ben could go do whatever he wanted. While he was gone Amy and I and Finn made Finn's card to Ben. It was sweet and involved paint and Ben loved it. Then on Sunday, I suprised him with a trip to the beach. We desperately needed to get the hell out of town for a day, so it was perfect weather for a beach trip. And since this was also Finn's first beach trip, we asked my parents to come too. It was really great to have help with Finn, especially since I didnt know how it was going to go. It was GREAT!!!!! I was able to hide underneath an umbrella tent to do our feeding thing, and Ben and Finn even took a long nap together in the shade. The water wasnt that cold, so there is a picture of Finn dipping his toes. I will upload them as soon as i'm able.
Another gift to Ben was a coffee maker. With all of his long nights and early mornings, it is coming in handy.
The last thing I did for Ben was drive to the beach and back. I know it seems like a small thing, but he drives the long drive every time and I did it so he coud relax in the back with Finn. he really appreciated that the most, I think.

It was really sweet of everyone to call and text him Happy Father's Day!
He had a phone call from Thomas, and sweet texts from our friends and even some of my friends.

I know he had a great weekend, and it was a very relaxing weekend that we havent had in awhile, and really needed.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Family Portraits

I'm ecstatic because I checked the mail yesterday, and inside the mailbox was a CD of our Family Portraits!
Johanna Lakin, with Johanna Lakin Photography, did an excellent job. It was hot and there were mosquito's all over the place, but you cant tell!
My plan is to send a newborn photograph I took of Finn and a family portrait and sent them out for everyone to have  pictures.
Feast thine eyes...



These are just a few. More on FCBK. Wooooo I love them!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Merry Christmas!

I know it's a tad bit early to get in the spirit, even for me, a holiday enthusiast.
On the day after Christmas this year, I bought a cuuuuuute little reindeer sleeper with footies and a matching hat. It was 9 months size, right, because Finn would be 9 months. Well I didn't expect to give birth to a baby who now at 3 months is wearing 9 months size. So ... he wore it this week!
Every morning we sing the good morning song to Finn then to mommy, then to daddy, who's usually not with us. Then we will cuddle and sing some more songs, read a book, or just talk. The morning he wore that outfit, we sang Christmas songs!
It was funny to me, and Finn enjoyed it! Grandma said for me to let her know when he wears size 12 months, because she also has a holiday shirt for him. I guess I will wait until December to get him his actual outfit! 

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

BIIIIIIIIIIG changes

Since we brought Finn home from the hospital ... Babyhood, we'll call it, I have learned about my baby and bonded with my baby.
I feel comfortable with him and he with me.
While I was pregnant I had these great plans to be all 'green' and eco-friendly. Well when I brought that baby home, all my plans went out the window and I was only concerned about taking everything in one day at a time. I could only focus on the present, and NONE of my plans were accomplished except one. I was and am able to give him breast milk. whew!
Well, now I finally reached the point where I feel comfortable enough to venture out, so to speak, and try all of these ideas I had.
One was diapers. I really wanted to use earth friendly diapers. I am more focused on helping the earth out in this particular topic.
It's estimated that a baby goes through 7500 changes in their lifetime. That's a crap ton, pardon my pun, of diapers. So I have reached the point where I am ready to give the earth a little break from my child.
So I started researching different kinds, and somehow on BBC (babycenter.com) Ie came across a forum  on cloth diapering. CLOTH DIAPERING?!?! WHAAAAAAAA???
Yes, it's true. I researched a lot about the process of cloth diapering and I am pretty sure I have the guts to try it. So I am trying to figure out which route I want to go. There are several options available when it comes to CD, and its not just your grandma's way of doing it anymore! Now, I haven't actually CD'd, but It seems pretty easy if you stick to a routine of washing and drying them on a 2 day basis.
We would still use disposable diapers at night and when we went out for extended periods of time. And if you're reading this and thinking, OMG, I HOPE SHE NEVER ASKS ME TO BABYSIT, have no fear, we don't expect anyone to do this with us if they don't want to. I would have disposables when we went to friends homes or those days when he spends time with grandparents/great grandparents. NOW, if you're ok with it, let us know! While we don't expect you to change a cloth diaper, we would appreciate your support and non-ignorance. If you have some ignorance, educate yourself, or keep it...because we don't want it.
So that in itself is a huge undertaking until we get used to it. I will have to do a special post all about CD!

Another thing I am super excited about is making Finn's baby food! When the time is right, I want to make his food. There are so many great and wonderful baby foods on the market, and we will be using them too, but I just cant wait to make food for him that has ingredients I know are in there. I am following several blogs and youtube channels all about homemade baby food and there are wonderful and easy recipes to make. And alot of them can be frozen for the month! One of my favorites is a recipe for rice cereal with brown rice that you grind up instead of white rice from a box, which is ok too! I cant wait to do this for my kid!!!
Speaking of my kid...

Chewing on his monkey paci

Pic of my new wedding band. I lost my other one.

the water from the other day. Yep, that's our welcome mat...floating away...

Long story, but the reason why he's in a reindeer Christmas outfit will be saved for the next post.

In his jumper! he loves it!

just plain BAD luck

The nicest thing this weekend was doing absolutely NOTHING. We have been non stop busy since Finn got here, and we just needed a break. I cooked the whole weekend, which I don't really get to do a whole lot anymore, at least not steak and stuff. It was yummy!
Last week was rough. Wednesday we got a crap ton of rain. I mean, roads were flooded around town. But not only were the roads flooded, the area around our apartment was too. So I went to my grandmothers house so that she could watch Finn while I did some of Ben's homework there on the laptop. Well it got pretty nasty at their house, so I called ben to check the front door of our apartment. Water was leaking in a little, but then he called back and said he moved the furniture in our bedroom and nursery because water was coming in the walls and the carpet was wet. He had to go to work, So mom came and got me (my car was too low to the ground to drive through any rain) and we came home and finished moving all the stuff off the wet carpet. Luckily I'm not a hoarder and there really wasn't that much to move.  I have helped a hoarder clean up after a flood once and it was AWFUL. So the carpet people came and sucked out water and I have yet to move all the stuff back in the rooms because the rain has come every day for about a week, and I don't want it happening again!
So our house is very un organized right now, mostly from relocating things for a little bit.

Other news is: in addition to our house getting a little bit flooded, our washing machine, air conditioning, and car have also malfunctioned.
A few weeks ago Mom came and got Finn and I was going to do about an hours worth of housework and then go to their house and join them. I was doing laundry and dishes and I walked into the nursery (which houses the washer and dryer in a closet) and there was smoke and a horrible burning smell. Turns out, the washer broke. Since Ben doesn't have time to fix a washing machine at all right now, and God knows how old this one was, we got a new one. and a really good deal on it too. This old set was just sitting at Ben's parents house and he asked if we could have it when we got married, so we never had "new" ones. This one works great!
The air is the apartment maintenance persons problem.
The car is Ben's. He can fix it, but just doesn't have the time. So I am without a car until further notice!
:(

Ben really wants to  move when he finishes school, so all these other apartment problems (too many to list) will be gone!
Can't wait to move!


Sunday, June 3, 2012

8 MORE WEEKS.

8 MORE WEEKS is all Ben (we) have left in school.
I say we, because it has been a struggle for both of us.
When he started, we lived in our first apartment and we had only been married not even two years and now we have our son and live in a different home.
He wouldn't have been able to do this without my grandparents and my parents. My parents offered to let us live with them for as long as we needed to so he could go to school and we wouldn't have to worry about too many bills since he wouldn't be able to work as much. And my grandparents helped in another very important way. So we had a lot of help. We have officially been in this apartment for a year this Sunday and it has just flown by, granted I was pregnant for most of it. But I don't know how all the other people in his class are, but my husband works his ass off.
Two weeks ago he had clinicals M, T, F from 5:30 am and went straight to work till 11pm. And when he got home, he didn't sleep, he did homework. He probably got a total of 10 hours of sleep that whole week. But he didn't once complain. he even did homework on Saturday morning and then took family pictures that afternoon. He did this often and even had a baby somewhere in there!
So in 8 weeks, it's all over.
clinical paperwork- which I have helped with and let me tell you, it sucks.
journals
Med sheets
Hesi's
drug calc tests
ALL OVER.
 It's not that bad either, with him gone all the time. I have help with Finn since it;s summertime and grandma and grandaddy can help one day a week. but I do get tired keeping up with Finn all night and all day those days.
Good thing for Ben and I is that Finn is sleeping through the night most nights. Last night he slept 9 hours straight!
In 8 weeks Ben will have a pinning ceremony and Finn and I will be so proud of him. We already are.
And then the next June, we will see him graduate.
I'm already planning two things:
1. A RELAXING vacation for me and him
2. A party to celebrate with everyone who helped us out so he could do this!


My Beckers


This is my sweet beckers and I on my wedding day. Beckers, Rebekah, is my cousin. We really hated each other for years based on assumptions we conjured up about each other. She thought I was a smoking, drinking, party girl that had loose morals. I WAS TWELVE!!!!! So when I was around 18 somehow we got in touch after years of not seeing each other and we talked for a good 5 hours on the phone. I talked to her almost every single night for two years and then when I got married and was busy all the time, I slacked off on talking to her. But recently I have been calling her during Finn's last bottle of the night.
She is just the right amount of weird crazy to keep me balanced friendship-wise. That girl's nuts.
But we feed off of each other!
So I would like to give a HUGE thank you to  her for listening to me for 6 years! I wish I got to see her more, but soon she will hopefully visit to meet Finn!
"Mmm chika chika mmm chika pot pie!"

Friday, June 1, 2012

Hella busy May


Why not start with some cuteness??
He was such a sweetie when he woke up!

Avery played his last concert of his high school music career:
Thomas visited!

Finn discovered his feet, and he cant stop looking at them!
Avery Graduated!

So like I said, Thomas visited us! He told us he wanted to come for Avery's graduation and he wanted it to be a suprise. So He got here ans stayed for a week:
He and Finn got along well lol.
And Avery Graduated! It was a nice graduation and we had lunch at Old Mexico.
We then had the photographer that took our wedding pictures, take my side of the family's portraits. I know Finn smiled for a few so I cant wait to see them!

This past week I took Finn to get his 2 month shots. He has grown in height and weight, and he seems to be developing on track. He did extremely well with the appointment and was only upset for a little while after the shots. He's was a little fussy that night, but he's back to normal now.

So while I was pregnant, I planned on working a few days each week this summer, but I decided I wanted to stay home with Finn. So the plans I made with people to watch him aren't really needed. But we decided one day out of the week I will drop him off withe my Grandparents for a few hours so I could do housework and any errands I needed to run. So I have done it 2 times and feel like I get so accomplished in just 4 hours. Then I go back and have dinner with them and go home. It's really nice to have a break and get some time to myself. And it is especially nice because nowadays I am keeping up with Finn at night and during the day because Ben is super swamped with his school stuff and work.

I am trying to get rid of stuff that Finn outgrows as he outgrows it. Not all of it, but just some. I gave a Friend a box of diapers that he outgrew that were left over. And there are some clothes that I am trying to Find a home for. Gotta wait and see if my friend is having a boy before I give them away. She finds out in 6 days and I cant wait!!!!

Speaking of exciting things....there's a WEDDING!!!!! another one! I Love weddings. Ashley and Phillip get married tomorrow and it's Ben and mine's first date since I gave birth. I'm kinda stoked.

Mom is watching Finn for us and I am trying to pump as much extra milk as I can right now with the electric pump for the night.
fun stuff. lol

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

just some pictures

 Finn at Grandma and Grandaddy's house
 Mommy and Finn
 Finn was pushing himself up with Aunt Amy
 So blurry because he couldnt stay still
Uncle Avery's Senior band banquet
Avery's Spring Concert
 

Sunday, May 6, 2012

First shopping trip

We have so much coming up in the next month!
Most of it's birthdays and showers, but trying to find gifts for these occasions is crazy! I am the worst gift picker-outer.  I know these people so well that I over think what to give them and I spend wayyyyy too much time and eventually just end up getting whatever. If I ask Ben what they would like, his answer is always "whatever you want"....so not much help, but ok.
So we have
Mother's Day (pretty excited it's my first)
Ashley L's lingerie shower
Ashley L's wedding-found a babysitter
Avery's Graduation-found a sitter for that too
Thomas's Bday
Grandma's bday
Malina's Birthday

We haven't left Finn with anyone except Mom and Dad. Once when I was sick and Ben was working, she and Dad took him for about 5 hours so I could sleep some of it off with medicine and not be out of it to take care of Finn, once for a doctor's appointment and once for an hour for a wedding. They are watching him for us when we go to Ashley's wedding in June though. I'm pretty excited because that will be the first time Ben and I go out together since Finn got here! we get to dress up too...
I know I'll be texting her the whole time asking how he is though!

And since my entire family will be going to graduation, Amy and Tucker are going to watch Finn while we are at the ceremony, for about an hour. Judging by the way they were with him the other night, I am completely comfortable with it and I reallllyyyyyyyy appreciate it! We actually had this set up before he was even born haha

Changing subjects....Ben and I took Finn with us to Valdosta yesterday to get some of this and also just to get out of town. It went extremely well! With both of us there it was nice to take turns changing his diaper and carrying him when he wanted to be held. We went to target, old navy, the mall, and Kohl's. It was a good day!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

My friends are better than yours...

Our baby is a wonderful baby.
He was good about setting a routine. At week 5 a sleep routine was established. It just kinda fell into place. Because Ben works till 11, we wait till he gets home to start it. It's bath, bottle, cuddle, bed. and if we do this the same every night, he'll sleep 5 or 6 hours, wake up to eat, and then go back to sleep for 3 or 4 more hours. Ben and I work our own things in there too. For example, When Ben gets home, I'll shower and then we'll bathe Finn, I'll feed him while Ben showers. And lately I get up with him on the first feeding, and Ben will do the second. It's smooth when we work together. 

I've also been getting out a lot. And Finn goes with me. He's so good with that. Like the car ride and then changing his diaper in different places and just chilling with different people, he doesn't mind it at all! Most Nights we go to Mom' house, so he's used to everything there. But last night we went to Amy and Tucker's place to help with some stuff and he was one super chill kid! He loved being held by Amy, and talked to Tucker quite a bit.


He's a pretty awesome lil' dude!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Rolling over

News:
-Last week I layed Finn on the love seat in the living room on his tummy. He fell asleep in my arms and I had things to do. So I pulled the ottoman up to the edge to block him from falling on the floor if he started moving. I stepped into the kitchen and literally one minute later, I walked back and found him laying on his back! Little booger rolled over! So Mom looked in my baby book and I did that when I was 3 months. He was 5 weeks!
-Finn had his first month checkup. After pooping on the table, himself, and the floor, he had a vaccine and got a spider man band aid. It was kinda cute :)
-I had my 5 week checkup and everything was great! I told the doctor that all my friends wanted to see the scar and my tummy and it looked so good that they wanted her to do their c-sections. I'm drumming up business for her lol I should get a commission...
-Finn has gained more weight and inches. as of last Wednesday he is 24 inches long and weighs 12.2 pounds. He has outgrown all of his 0-3 and 3 month sleepers. Some of the onesies still fit though. He just couldn't stretch his legs out! So my one and a half month old is wearing 3-6 month clothes. One of the brands he wears 9 month onesies...

Here's some cuteness for ya...



I really hope his eyes stay blue, or go to green like mine.

falling asleep at the pool

Oh baby! Aunt Amy's glasses

Finn's sunglasses mom got him. A liiiiitle too big.

bath

Daddy and Finn

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

springtime


First off, I realize I have the same pose in all the pictures...
Today Finn is 5 weeks old! And we have been BUSY!!!!!
In a little over one month, I had a baby, a best friend Amy got married, my great grandmother passed away, my oldest friends came for a special visit on Easter, Avery had his senior promand another best friend, Malina, got married yesterday! Those are some pretty eventful days!










Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Mom

I have, hands down, the BEST mother in the world.
Ladies, when you have a baby, and you are planning for someone to help after you go home...make sure your mom is there if possible!
First off, I don't take criticism well. or "advice". So when I didn't know how to do something correctly or I was learning it for the first time, I'm glad Mom was the one to teach me how to do it.
Take bathtime for example. For his first bath, Mom said she was going to start some water in the sink. She called me over to "feel if it was too hot".
It was. So I said, oh yeah add some cold to it. I'm pretty sure she was testing me. But see? taught me that lesson, and here I was thinking I caught the water temperature in time all by myself. I asked her if she did it on purpose. She said she'll never tell.
She taught me a lot of other things too. Just little things, too many to remember. And Ben did too. He is in school to become a nurse, so he had a little bit more book knowledge on babies. :)

Now, in the hospital I had to get up and use the bathroom. With a c-section, its not fun at all. The getting out of bed part isn't that bad. Its the sitting down on the toilet and wiping your butt that sucks. TMI, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't physically bend and wipe. So, at one point, my angel of a Mom WIPED MY BUTT.
Here I am 24 years old, wiping my own kids booty, and she's doing the same!
That alone gives her mom of the year award.
And she not only did it in the hospital, but when I got home and I started the normal bleeding (gushing is more like it) she cleaned me up! And the mess it made on the way to the bathroom at 7 in the morning.

She never had to spend the night but I'm sure she would have if I had asked her to.

My parents (dad too!) have been so much help. I thought I was going to have other people helping too, but I simply cannot allow it to keep myself sane. So Mom and Dad have pretty much been the main help. They followed us home from the hospital and have been giving up their own time to help me out at night since Ben works nights. Most of the time they just get to hold and love on Finn while I get a shower or, on occasion, sleep.  But they also help with dishes and always bring me supper when they come over. Sometimes they come get me (because I can't drive yet) and I go to their house for awhile.

If I didn't already know I am blessed to have such a fantastic Mom, Ben told me one night while we were talking about what kind of parents we wanted to be, that he wanted me to be like my Mom.
I'll try, but those are some pretty big shoes to fill!!!

Gotta think of some kick ass mother's and Father's day gifts this year...got some ideas a'brewin!!

Friday, April 6, 2012

PT 3.....

The rest of the hospital stay was pretty much the same things as the first day.
Meds
Breastfeeding attempts.
Meds.
Walking the halls.
Meds.
Breastfeeding.

The BFing issue was HUGE.
I was so out of it, and had SO much unwanted stress and sadness, that I really had a lot of frustration with breastfeeding. And it didn't help that only one nurse was able to help me the whole time I was there. The hospital leaves much to be desired in the lactation help department...

We finished out our stay and we were discharged Friday night.
When we got married, Ben carried me into our house after the wedding, and he carried Finn in the door too. Somewhere there are pictures I will upload of us coming home. I think there are pics of that and his nursery debut on Mom's camera.

Here are some pics from the first few days at home:


That's about all I have for y'all without giving too many personal details and memories.
There are so many precious memories that Ben and I don't want the world to know, but as much as I can, I will post things.
More later!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

The BIG day!!! Pt.2

So The rest of Finn's birth story is going to leave out a lot.
A lot of bad memories that Ben and I are trying our best to block out. It makes me feel so stupid that I spent so much time trying to build a relationship with his family for the sake of my child, for months and it was literally destroyed in seconds and lasted the whole time we were in the hospital. It put a lot of stress on us in the first few days as new parents and we are having a very hard time forgiving them for ruining such a beautiful experience. So from here on out, Ben and I are giving you the birth story we want to remember.
Don't get me wrong. There are still a lot of happy memories!!!

So I left off at the at the part where I met Finn. I just remember repeating "He's huge!!"

So at some point while Dr was fixing me up (which by the way, this Dr supposedly always gives her patients staples, which leave some pretty bad scars. But she gave me stitches that go under the skin and dissolve, so I have minimal scarring. Actually it looks quite fabulous!) Ben took Finn to the nursery. I was so out of it that I don't even remember him being gone. He came back and I was wheeled to recovery.
Sidenote: It was so nice to be wheeled through the hallways, and pass by the group of familiar faces looking in the nursery. I picked out Mom first, then Grandma. They waved and smiled. :) It was just nice to see them after all that had happened in the surgery room.
I was in such a state that I asked Ben if he would stay with me in recovery instead of going to the nursery. Besides, our families were there to get pictures and videos. Since Ben works there in the surgery department, there was no problem with him sitting with me for what was supposed to be an hour until the spinal wore off.

Wellllllll, apparently they gave me extra spinal, or I just have a hard time with it wearing off, so I was in recovery for over 2 hours. I could leave when I could lift my leg.
So when I got to that point, the pain in my abdomen set in, and I got to press the special button to administer pain meds to myself.

I was wheeled to my room, snagged Mom on the way and was transferred to my bed. It hurt being jostled around. The nurse started the pitocin, to make my uterus contract back down to size, and THAT is when I experienced the most pain in my whole life. I was in so much pain, that when they brought Finn into the room for me to hold and Breastfeed (BF), I didn't even want to hold him. It hurt so much.

Finally after my meds really started kicking in, I held him and started BF-ing. Along with the contractions from the pitocin, the BFing added stronger contractions too, and I was just in so much pain that every picture of me at that moment will never see the light of day. It was awful.

My Mom was on one side and Ben on the other and I just remember gripping her hand so tight that she probably hated me.lol


The rest of the first day is a total blur.
From the pain meds, I was high as a kite.
I remember it being hard to talk. I felt like I was talking through a straw.
And everyone else knew it too. I had a few visitors that first day. I really didn't feel like visitors AT ALL. And in my head I was trying to remember to call a few people and just ask them to wait till the next day, but I was so out of it, and forgot. So Aunt Malina and Aunt Amy came by and loved on Finn.

They also brought a gift from Morgan, which was the most awesome gift that I, high as ever, could have received: A bag of assorted candies. Pretty much made my evening!
I decided that at that moment, i would bring candy to anyone in the hospital for anything.
We had a few other people stop by unexpectedly, and we just had to ask them to come back later, because I was just so out of it and still in crazy pain.

The first night was tough. Ben went home and slept for a few hours and Mom and Dad stayed with me.
And they got some Finn sugars, and listened to me talk some crazy talk.


I don't really remember much, but I remember asking half questions and talking about stuff I was thinking about. I was very confused. I talked to both of my brothers on the Phone and I have no memories of it. I told Thomas that the surgery was awesome and raved about the spinal. Avery called just to listen to my crazy talk, i think. Then the best thing that I don't remember was when I asked my dad to read the cards from Morgan and Gentry. He read them out loud and then I told him thank you, in the form of a children's prayer. I sang "Thank you father" and changed the lyrics from "...for our food.." to "for the card!.."
Wish I had it on video.
Ben returned and took out the birthday boy pin he bought for Finn and got this cute picture.
Mom and Dad left, and I was out for the night!

more coming....

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

The BIG Day!! part one

So as I have a newborn here next to me, I'm going to have to split Finn's birth story into parts.
Here's part one:

My surgery was scheduled for 9am.
We woke and I showered in this special body wash for surgery, and I got dressed in my shirt from Amy ha ha.
I was extremely nervous and a bit upset from the whole unexpected c-section situation, but I calmed down enough to be ok for awhile. I had never had surgery, not even minor. The absolute worst pain I've ever experienced was probably a bee sting or stomach ache. So the fact that I was going to have surgery AND be awake for it, completely freaked me out.
I wanted my Mom and Dad and Avery to go to the hospital with Ben and I, so we met them at their apartment and snagged some last minute pictures:


We headed to the hospital and when I signed in, it only took about 10 minutes for someone to come and get me and Ben and they took us to Labor and Delivery to wait. My case had been pushed back because of some emergencies, so we waited even longer.


Finally after a few hours of waiting, the surgery team came and introduced themselves.
Ben had the great opportunity to  handpick some of the team. Of course I had my regular Dr. And we were fortunate enough to have the anesthesiologist we wanted, and Ben asked his friends Heather and Grant to be the nurse and scrub tech. I felt so comfortable knowing some of these people prior to my pregnancy. It helped me calm down a lot.

The team wheeled me into the operating room a little before 12. Immediately the spinal was put into my back, which by the way, was the coolest thing I had ever experienced, medically speaking. As soon as it started to spread, which I could feel, by the way, I was layed down, Ben was let into the room and I  could feel the pressure of the c-section starting.
I layed there while Ben talked to me the whole time about things he loved about the pregnancy. I'm gonna go ahead and say that this was about the point when I realized I was AWAKE during surgery and I said, "Hey, you guys!"
"What's that?" the doctor said while still cutting my belly
"This is great! I don't feel shit!"
I remember everyone laughing.

The next thing I heard was the doctor saying "Oh my! This is a big boy!"
Then there was pressure on my tummy, someone said he was here, Ben looked around the sheet, and then I heard it:
the most amazing sound I have ever heard: Finn's first scream.

Everything after that was pretty much a blur until Ben brought Finn to me. I hadn't even noticed Ben wasn't next to me. I only know what he was doing from the pictures that a nurse took:
Finn is here!!!

Daddy cutting the cord
Daddy holding his baby

The first time I met him just for a few seconds.
As you can see here, my face is extremely swollen.

There are more pictures for my facebook friends, if they are interested in looking.
Part two is coming soon!