Fuzzy Sugar
Lovebug
Little Mister
Punkin
Sweet Prince
Punkin Doodle
These are the nicknames we have had for Finn since we knew we were pregnant. Lately it's been "Little Sugar". And Jasper is "Furry Sugar". lol
Ben says "I bet they think we're weird now."
It's ok though!
I write some stuff about the pregnancy on here, but there's a lot that I don't. Well I feel like sharing some of it now.
I've put some stuff on here about how we told people and the day we found out, but I don't think I told details about that night. If I did, then feel free to hear all about it again :)
It all kind of started about a week and a half before we found out. I had some pain and thought I was having an ovarian cyst again. I got them just about every three months and they hurt like the dickens. I even told my Mom a few times that week that I was having one again and might have to see about getting back on a birth control pill.
SIDE STORY- I started taking birth control about 7 months before I got married and never had any problems from it. After we were married for about a year I switched pharmacies, and the new one gave me a different brand of generic for Loestrin. I never had any problems on Loestrin, but about 3 months after taking the new generic I got into a weird funk and pretty much got depressed. Ben and my co workers even noticed. At the time I didn't even think about it being my birth control, but a few weeks later I started having leg numbness and so the only thing we could think of was my new BC, so I stopped taking it and ALL my symptoms disappeared. Also I felt totally healthy and decided I didn't want to be back on any birth control pill. So for a year, I wasn't taking any form of Birth Control. So Ben and I made a pact and decided that we weren't going to have sex for a year.
AHAHAHAHAH kidding.
Anyways, the whole point to the BC story was to say that when I was on the pill, I had less cramps from my cysts. But when I got off, the pain was bad. So I thought all these cramps were a cyst.
So Mom knew I was having issues.
Well then I remember Ben's parents came over one night to eat and I was talking to MIL, and I doubled over in the kitchen with a sharp jab in my side. It took my breath away. And I think It was the next day that was the fourth of July and I woke up feeling awful. I rode to the In laws house with the seat layed back and when I was there I just felt like crap. A few people asked me what was wrong, but all I could say was I don't know, because honestly other than exhaustion, I couldn't pinpoint anything.
skip a few days to Saturday.
I had lunch with my friend Nicki at Barberitos and I think Ben and I went on a date that night. And then we went home and I was going to paint my nails and just kinda do nothing and Ben was watching a movie in the bedroom. Now TMI, I was due to get my period that day, and usually I just wake up with it, but It hadn't made an appearance so I was like what the heck I'll take a test. So I went to the bathroom alone with a test, and what do you know, it was positive immediately. I REALLLLYYY had no clue that was going to happen. So I sat there on the toilet silently freaking out. First off, I was alone. Secondly, Ben had no clue I was even taking a test at all. So he's watching mortal combat, and I was watching a positive sign popping up. My first thought was maybe it was a fluke. So I grabbed another one, peed on it, put it down and walked out. I gave Ben a hug and went back in and it too was positive. So I freaked out again.
Then I walked into the bedroom and I just looked at him and started crying and he was like uhhh, what's wrong? I told him and he was completely in shock. I told him if I thought they were going to be positive I would have made him be in there with me. He was in shock for about 15 minutes.
haha
He was so happy!
He started talking to my belly that night even though we hadn't had our confirmation blood work done yet or anything.
There was lots of crying that night. But they were tears of joy. I had alot going on in my personal life at that time and I really just needed something to be happy about and to focus on for the next few months. We had just moved into our new apartment one month before that night, and I just remember praying for something happy and in praying, I remember for a spilt second how I thought it just felt like the right time to take that step with Ben but as soon as it entered my mind it exited. Turns out, everyone, and I mean EVERYONE in our immediate circle of friends and family needed something happy too, so I believe Finn was sent for a reason, and it was more than just to make me and Ben happy with starting a family.
I haven't told many people about the fact that Finn was an answered prayer. But he is :)
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